Keeping Positive and holding onto happiness ♡
This is going to be a slightly more personal post, nothing to do with fashion, makeup etc so if thats not what your here for, then stop reading.
Lately , since starting Art College, my life has changed quite dramatically - definitely for the better. Happiness has never been a choice for me, i've wanted it so badly but its just been something that I have never quite been able to reach, and sadly to say I hadn't felt it for a very long time; to the point that I physically couldn't bring myself to even fake smile, and practically had no motivation for life.
However, for various reasons I'm not going to go into very much yet, life is looking up at the moment :) and I think I might be starting to recognise happiness.
Problem is... happiness is quite hard to keep hold of, and I feel it slipping away very often. At the moment, it has a lot to do with others making me feel like I'm not worthy of being happy, and provoking negative memories and thoughts. I like to say that I don't care what other people think, and to an extent I don't, but the thought of people who don't really know anything about me , talking about me, makes me feel anxious and self conscious. This is a problem for me, when I am at a point in my life where I just want to be myself in every way - whether its what I wear, how I think, what colour my hair is, or who I date. An obvious way of conquering this, is Acceptance of yourself. I am working hard on this but it doesn't come naturally, as I'm sure it doesn't for many people. Another way - when your being affected by negative people, try to surround yourself with people who support you and a person who you can tell exactly how your feeling (whether its a friend, parent, or counsellor) to put your mind at rest , and encourage your positive thoughts.
Annoyingly, There is always going to be someone who has something negative to say about anything you do - but thats normal. Not everyone in the world is going to like your new top, but having enough Confidence to keep your head held high, and think 'I don't give a f*** what anyone else thinks' is whats needed for inner acceptance - leading to happiness within yourself.
Everyone wants happiness (well..i think!) but being happy doesn't mean that your never going to feel sad again, and you won't have bad days....what I've learnt and have been told many time is that its about Recognising when your feeling good, or the smallest things that make you smile. This is so that, during the bad times, you can reassure yourself that your not going to feel that way forever. And remember that there is a lot of beauty in the world.
|This is my own work.|
If your finding a time in your life difficult, look to the future and remind yourself of all the things you want to achieve, things you want to do, people you want to meet. You could even write a note book about all the things that make you happy, or things you have to look forward to - so that you can look in it if your feeling hopeless.
KEEP SMILING - when you give up on smiling, its a difficult Habit to get out of.
LET PEOPLE KNOW THAT THEY MAKE YOU HAPPY - some people may misunderstand your unhappiness and take it personally; as being sad for a long time can make you angry , and hurt people who are close to you.
Most of this has been written to remind myself, and make holding onto happiness easier. But I hope it can help at least one other person. Its also practically three days until christmas, so SMILE AND BE JOLLY!
(All images are from my Pinterest, apart from the top image which is my own work.)